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Human Nature

"Shinrin-yoku is a Japanese word which refers to taking a short trip or visit to a forest. Literally, it means 'forest bathing.'"



i sat down to write a poem about feeling dull but couldn’t get my mind sharp enough to get past everything obvious, like the metamorphosis of pencils. so i said fuck it, i took out a piece of paper and drew a circle over and over until the graphite’s breath went from metallic to silken. then i stepped into the circle and thought, i wish everything would just come inside here, this place whose border is so uniform, i know exactly where to begin, where to end: anywhere. i laid there for a while looking around appreciating its stark emptiness and then i stepped out, off the page. i drew oceans and continents on the circle, saw it finally as a sphere, then sharpened my mind on crumpling it up, throwing it away, and starting over; writing a poem about feeling dull.

This is one of the strongest pieces of short fiction I've read

Once upon a time, there was a man whose therapist thought it would be a good idea for the man to work through some stuff by telling a story about that stuff.

The man lived in a one-bedroom efficiency cottage all by himself, in a sort of dicey part of town. One day, the man woke up and realized that this was pretty much it for him. It wasn’t terrible. But it wasn’t great, either. And not likely to improve. The man was smart enough to realize this, yet not quite smart enough to do anything about it. He lived out the rest of his days and eventually died. The end. Happy now?

The man could see that his therapist was not amused.

A rather unsatisfactory ending, the therapist opined, and suggested that the man could do better. The man thought, Is she really serious about this? But he didn’t say anything out loud. The man was not convinced that he needed to be talking to the therapist at all, but he had tried so many other things (potions, spells, witches), and spent so much of his copper and silver, with absolutely nothing to show for it, that he figured why the hell not.

So how do I do this? he asked.

Why don’t you start again? the therapist replied. And, instead of rushing to the end, try to focus on the details.

O.K., the man said... continue

Barack Obama

The candidness of this interview provides valuable context to a presidency that has dealt with problems in culture and policy that will have far reaching implication for decades to come. 

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Always Traveling


We were driving through the solstice sunset of Iceland’s southern coast, a sunset that’s never satiated with a night-dark ending because it, some pastel-drenched hours later, simply turns into a sunrise; refusing to betray the majesty of the landscape by hiding it from the light. But just for these summery weeks does the sun march across the horizon like a tireless, poised soldier. In other weeks, on the opposite side of the calendar, the night creeps along without apology, only relenting from the blackness for a few hours of dusky twilight in the early afternoon.

It’s as if the year in Iceland is one long, slow day… the light and the dark, separated by seasons instead of hours. The thought crossed my mind more than once while frolicking through its formidable landscapes: what an injustice it is to be here for only one week, one blink of an eye in the long day of its year. Those that spend the full calendar here earn the white night by braving the darkness of winter. We earned it perhaps through a different kind of long night, in fact many of them, the ones of triumphant excess we had strung together the previous weeks in a couple of the old-world’s legendary metropolises to the southeast.

We started in Barcelona, the loud, rebellious Mediterranean city where gothic grey meets contemporary color. We used the music festival on its shores that week as an excuse to gather nine of us from across the world in a luxurious flat that had enough beds to sleep everyone, even though we didn’t really end up using them, at least for sleep. Instead, we ate and drank and danced without measuredness. We talked boisterously about politics and art, about the world’s problems, about our ideas for the future, about our hopes for each other—all with such passion that we eventually had to get a spatula from the kitchen to serve as a talking stick… shhhhh, you can only talk while holding the spatula! That worked for about five minutes. Then, we laid on a big bed together and gave each other the kind of feedback that comes best just around dawn. We uncovered things that needed to be uncovered and we buried things that needed to be buried. Not wholly because of, nor in spite of a certain amount of chemical assistance.

Traveling is important for its ability to force one to lose balance, to lose predictability, to lose comfort, to lose the calculated sobriety of striving. Gone is the stability of routine and the neatness it creates in life. Gone are the definitions of how the day is supposed to be carried out. Gone are the structures of quotidian organization that, even in their invisibility, beckon with such constrictive inertia in one’s place of living. When the paths of least resistance so present at home are given geographical space, the limitations they impose on identity quiet down. A foreign city carries little expectation. I can do anything I want, I can be anything I want!

Traveling also erases the certainty of knowledge—of where the cardinal directions are, of the meaning of street signs, of what the locals are talking about, of what lies around the next corner—but also, the knowledge of what the world is, of who the person traveling is. And in this way, traveling is a lot like love: the world being reinvented, lying itself at ones feet, begging another step into the lack of clarity, into the potential of letting go, into being something bigger. Where we lose the balance of sleep, where we lose the balance of consumption, where we lose the balance of practice, of practicality, of responsibility; we churn an immense opening of potential, so that when the scales rebalance, they do so with incredible freshness. There's a new idea of what's possible, what exists, what's healthy, what's important, and most critically, what lies within waiting to be unleashed—the one thing that can never be found while clinging to the need to always know which direction on the horizon will receive the sunrise. 

I thought a lot about my next steps in life while driving around Iceland, I thought about what’s really important to me, about what I want to create, about where I want to be in one year, five years, twenty years. As we passed through a seemingly endless stretch of bulbous lava rocks dominating the foreground between the road and the grass-covered volcanic peaks in the distance, I had a moment of questioning whether the rocks were really the pale yellowish-brown they appeared to be… maybe they were deeply black like the rest I’d seen, but covered now with a tundra of moss, sliding across the rocky surface. It was hard to tell. I had to pull over, put my hands on the ground to investigate. I had to see by feeling.

It was in fact a muscly moss covering dry, dark lava. What looked rock-hard and permanent from the road was actually an inches-thick plant life, making the jagged, rocky edges more feminine and soft, more full of breath. After feeling the mossy surface with my hands, I could then, for the rest of the week from the highway, feel its slow movement in my mind. We drove some seventeen-hundred kilometers across the edges of the island, camping wherever we grew tired. When the moss popped up from time to time, it seemed somehow just like the glaciers off in the distance. Both were incredibly alive, just on a different temporal scale, a very slow one, in great congruency with the sedated but steady pace of the sun above. After two weeks of rapidity and explosiveness, I let that sedation seep into me from the sulfury water of the many hot springs in which I floated with a smile that could never be hurried away.

Just days before that Icelandic drive, I was sitting at one of the world’s most perfect cafés on Sorauerstraße in the Kreuzberg district of Berlin—sitting with a cappuccino, a piece of carrot cake, a pencil and a notebook. The street there is lined with uniformly spaced trees. The branches reach towards the open windows of a row of flats whose faces all look similar in their differentness, as if the buildings are siblings in a family that can all agree on a time and place, but not on a mutual view towards which to face; a perspectively-challenged family, like the rest of them. But those buildings feel very much at ease, leaning on each other, covered up to their ankles in a spray-painted graffiti whose beauty is defined by its pervasiveness. It’s so appropriate there, in a place built from ashes. Six feet up from the ground, there’s a city-wide ring of color that seems to somehow comment on the things that are now six feet deep, after a generation of rebuilding.

The girl who served me coffee that afternoon was now sitting outside as well, with a friend, at a table just to my right. I became sharply aware of this fact because I fell in love with her the moment I saw her. As she reclined there in a grey tank top and a blue skirt tied together with a floral apron, I wrote in my notebook about gravity. Not the type that binds planets in a cosmic dance, but the kind that makes someone directly to my left feel a thousand miles away, while she, sitting the same distance to my right, could feel like an unavoidable black-hole. I thought then about giving her a note to tell her about her gravity: We can only see ourselves through each other, and I see you as a perfect beauty in this wild world… I hope you see yourself in the same way.

I ended up writing that note days later with the accompaniment of a cold beer and a fresh cigarette outside an art gallery in Mitte. I wasn’t sure if I’d give it to her, just that I wanted to remember what I saw in her that first time, as well as the following few we made it back there, to the café across from my friend’s flat, after long nights of filling the world with vividness, of being filled, by the world, with vividness. While writing, I smiled internally at the silliness of love at first sight, knowing that it’s very real to love someone without knowing their complexity, but only the simplicity of their gravity. 

Then, days later, and minutes before getting onto a train headed for the airport, I reached into the breast pocket of my black jacket, retrieved the folded, graphite-covered papers and handed them to her at the counter of her café. In doing so, I was in some way committing to always follow the mystery of gravity, to chase it towards its perfection, towards the place where nothing can escape. She smiled with a blush and I walked out a little bit taller for having found the courage to show her her own beauty through my words.

Later, on the last night of an exemplary trip, my friend and I took a seat on an old leather couch in the corner of a bar in downtown Reykjavik. We pulled some art magazines off the bookshelf, had some drinks, and laughed as certain scenes from the previous weeks surfaced from our memories and from our iPhone photos. I eventually found myself having a hard time reading the magazines because looking across the small, music-filled Icelandic room provided a better view for me to reflect upon what I’d learned, what I wanted to take home with me, and who I wanted to be in my old, new life.

We’ve heard that the safety net appears only after we jump, after the risk is taken to fly into the world fearlessly. Any hope that we have to achieve our full potential comes from a swift movement towards the unknown. After three weeks of pushing myself socially, physically and emotionally, I sat next to the window of an Airbus watching the sunset over San Francisco… deeply saturated colors now that signaled the arrival of the first dark night in a week. I thought yes, the net appears after we jump, but, only if we spend the days of our lives building that net in our imagination can we trust our inevitable leaping. Before any quick movement towards evolution, there is a glacial, mossy slowness of change built of the steadiness of questioning, of expanding into the world, of pushing the boundaries of what we think we know, of what we think is possible. We are always traveling, there is always newness. There is always an opportunity to be more vividly alive, more vividly in love, at home, now.

Rebecca Solnit

In honor of her birthday today, I want to share this powerful interview with my friend and my hero Rebecca Solnit, recorded recently on the great podcast On Being... She is a national treasure and I've learned so much about art, politics, history, feminism and how to be in the world from her prolific work. Enjoy!

Loneliness: The Golden Opportunity

As human beings, not only do we seek resolution, but we also feel that we deserve resolution. However, not only do we not deserve resolution, we suffer from resolution. We don’t deserve resolution; we deserve something better than that. We deserve our birthright, which is the middle way, an open state of mind that can relax with paradox and ambiguity.

Cool loneliness allows us to look honestly and without aggression at our own minds. We can gradually drop our ideals of who we think we ought to be, or who we think we want to be, or who we think other people think we want to be or ought to be. We give it up and just look directly with compassion and humor at who we are. Then loneliness is no threat and heartache, no punishment. More...

Top 10 Albums of 2015


10. Lubomyr Melnyk — Rivers and Streams

The Ukrainian wizard strikes again with a somehow simultaneously chaotic and cathartic blanket of piano virtuosity that sounds a lot like, well... rivers and streams.


9. HVOB — Trialog

It's hard to make a deep house album that can actually be called an album, not just a bunch of tracks. Trialog is an album—an energetic, nuanced, haunting and exemplary album.


8. Colleen — Captain of None

Right when you think the upper reaches of looping potential have been reached in music, Colleen raises the bar with a perfectly minimal, perfectly layered piece of novel beauty.



7. Four Tet — Morning/Evening

No one in electronic music is as consistently themselves and consistently fresh every year. God bless Four Tet. That's all.



6. Nils Frahm — Solo

This album was created from nine hours of improvisation on a twelve foot high piano. The sound quality of the recording is as brilliant as the playing.


5. Vince Staples — Summertime '06

There are those that make meandering hip-hop records too long to get through, there are those that make hip-hop records deserving of two disks to be complete. 


4. Shigeto — Intermission

The sounds, the rhythms, the challenges, the releases: Intermission is a victory for Shigeto and an inspiration for the forward progress of electronic music.


3. Leon Bridges — Coming Home

It's really just impossible.



2. Jenny Hval — Apocalypse, Girl

Jenny Hval is a writer whose understatedness simply can't last much longer. This is a visionary album, it's a poem whose honesty and clarity shines on top of a transcendent musicality.


1. Kendrick Lamar — To Pimp A Butterfly

Album of the decade. Seriously. Who knew that Bob Dylan, Miles Davis and Tupac had a love child? This album is sharp, soft, desperate, and triumphant. I still can't believe how good it is.


Honorable Mention Blond:ish — Welcome to the Present, A$AP Rocky — At Long Last A$AP, Freddie Gibbs — Shadow of a Doubt, Tame Impala — Currents, FKA Twigs — M3LL155X, Thundercat — The Beyond/Where the Giants Roam, Bob Moses — Days Gone By.